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What really spooked me about Tuck's brother's suicide was
that as near as we could tell, he’d done it on impulse
like it was nothing, like dying is the kind of thing a
grown man gets to make up his own mind about. Gene
Whitmoore—that was the kid’s name—hadn’t had any
mental illness, had a nice family, and according to the
autopsy he was pretty close to sober at the moment
he died. He didn’t leave a note. Gene, on a sticky July
night, had been walking home from way out in the
country where he and some of the other ball players
and their girlfriends had been drinking in the woods
like a bunch of rednecks. Having decided he didn’t
want another beer, Gene walked home before one of
the others guys could sober up enough to drive him
back. At 400 South and Mulberry, a quarter-mile north
of his house and way west of the ballpark, Gene must
of gotten the idea that he was going to die, and stepped
out in front of a Ford explorer and dropped to his knees
before the poor sucker driving it had time to stop. We
didn’t know the guy who hit Gene, but in a shaky TV
interview he’d said the boy hadn’t said a thing, just died
right there on impact. My dad, eating chili and shaking
his head at the news, kept silent as he watched so I
didn’t say anything either.
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